Please help? Anxiety and ocd? viscous cycle?

Zack ... you should be treated by a psychiatrist. There are good medicines today to stop panic attacks, depression and OCD. It's a matter of finding the right medicine(s) with the right dosage(s) that minimize side effects. They will also train you in Cognitive Therapy to help your mental thought processes be healthy. These things usually only get worse without treatment. Schedule an appointment as soon as possible so you can live a normal life. Chip